Kelly Smith Weblog Aficionado: Just a guy vs. Life

  “We want to travel baggage-free on this journey. It makes the trip easier.                 Some of the baggage we can let go of is lingering feelings and unfinished business with past relationships:  anger; resentments; feelings of victimization, hurt, or longing.                 If we have not put closure on a relationship, if we cannot walk away in peace, we have not learned our lesson. That may mean we will have to have another go-around with that lesson before we are ready to move on.                 We may want to do a Fourth Step (a written inventory of our relationships) and a Fifth Step (An admission of our wrongs). What feelings did we leave with in a particular relationship? Are we still carrying those feelings around? Do we want the heaviness ...

 

She suggested we get a joint bank account three months after our first date. I was hesitant...I told her that it was too soon.  Before she abruptly hung up from the Facetime Video she said, "You aren't ready to be in a relationship."  I was in my apartment 87 miles away.  Being me, not wanting to argue, I did not call back...for 6 days.  She texted me the morning of the 7th day and asked if I was interested in talking.  I was...because I loved her despite the sinking feeling that her idiosyncrasies were actually deal breakers for me.  And...I had realized  on day 3, I had left my deceased father's wristwatch and my XBOX in her living room on my last visit.  In month four I was trying to get in touch with my daughter, and opined about her current living arrangements.  Later that evening we argued about something trivial and our argument jumped the chasm from the immediate subject, to how she was not going to be party for me to chase after my "...

 Drinking bourbon, as of late, has been an attempt at an antidote for the blues that I feel.  That’s progress I suppose.  It used to be the cause.

Very few relationships are all good. Very few are all bad. And one way or another all relationships will end. Because none of us last forever.

And once again...melancholia.

Well, this thing is still here....and so am I.  Albeit rarely. Facebook killed the personal blog site star...

NFL great Brown on meeting Trump: 'He's got my admiration' Read article here I am reserving comment...at this time.

Peace is not something you wish for; it's something you make, Something you do, Something you are, and Something you give away.

Facebook wiped out my creative energy and my willingness to get on blogger and compose updates.  Pushbutton statuses are great, but I think I have lost a step as of late.  Since my last post I have had four birthdays, been engaged, and now I am 12 days away from remarrying.  Life is curious when you live it...

40... Well, the morning of my 40th birthday has finally arrived, and I feel good.  There have been some pretty astounding, yet humbling changes  in my life as of late.  But, I am dealing with circumstance well, and I think I know the direction that my life needs to go.  I may have lived over half my life at this point, and right now I have no regrets.  I have plenty of "lessons learned", but no regrets.  At the end of the day, all of my choices in life have led me to some sort of positive end thus far.  I am an eternal optimist.  Well, Happy Birthday to me....

Starting Over Funny how the road of life takes you.  I am approximately halfway through my life...if I am lucky, and now at this stage of the game I live in an apartment that offers the same level of comfort and amenities as my college apartment.  So many changes that have occurred, and so many changes to come.  Things aren't great, but things aren't really bad either.  I am going to manage things the best that I can.  I am broke as a joke, and I'm at a crossroads in my military career.  But I am optimistic....I don't have much, but I have everything that I need.  God has given me a great father, mother, and two sisters. "I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. "

I just needed to blow the dust off..........

....38 Today is my 38th Birthday. Feels good to be alive doing the things I love to do. When I was five years old I made up my mind in regard to what I wanted to do. I wanted to be just like my father. Life is up, life is down...sometimes things are easy, sometimes things are hard. But right now, I love my life.

Kanye West is imploding.... I don 't think that Kanye realizes that there is a certain level of saturation that the public is willing to accept in regard to "Rock Star" behavior. I mean dude ought to know if Bobby Knight can be fired from IU, he could see a big cut into his record sales. Regardless of whether or not you agree with his sentiment, that was horrible. He took what Taylor had already described as "unbelievable" since she is a country music singer and ruined it. That was her first one and this is what she will always remember. He ought to have to apologize to her.

Were the Iranian elections rigged? http://www.time.com/time/specials/packages/article/0,28804,1904645_1904644,00.html?cnn=yes

Happy 234st Birthday to the United States Army! Happy Birthday to the greatest military fighting force that the world has ever known. The same force my dad gave 30 years to in active service, as well as 18 years more as a civilian worker. I am enjoying myself on this beautiful Sunday, and I don't have to work on Monday which makes it even better.

Gotta get (back) in shape..... Damn..........what the hell happened? I left Iraq at 175 pounds of lean, mean, fighting machine. Now I am 205 pounds of chubby, tame, couch potato....I gotta get cracking. Check out the tracker that I am using from http://medhelp.org. Wish me luck!

The "N" Moments of the Lost Boys..... Unfortunately there is a population of young males in the United States who boast a significant few who seem to have no care about themselves, their race, their future, or even what discredit and hardship their misdeeds bring upon others. Years ago I used to scoff at the notion that rap music, video games, or racy movies had anything to do at all with influencing the behavior of individual people. To a large extent I still feel that way, however, I do acknowledge that people of weak mind, spirit, and moral makeup attempt to "emulate" what they see, because somehow many of these negative behaviors are perceived. The medial seems to reinforce the notion that somehow because you are a black mail, you have had a rough life and grew up in "hell". That may be true for some, but I think there is a large majority that step into that position as an actor steps into a role. There are few occassions when a person is so poor that ...

Al Furat, Muhalla 893, Baghdad Province, March 13th, 2007....Sniper....[PART 1] On March 13th, 2007 the day seemed like every other day in Iraq.....hot and dreary. The winter was over, the rains had stopped, and the temperature was climbing back toward the unforgiving and miserable level that it had been when we first arrived. I was the 1st Platoon Leader of Alpha Company 1-149th IN. My platoon was in charge of patrolling Al Furat, Al Maksasib, a tiny sliver of Al Jihad, the operating space of AO Mutt, and a daily route clearance on stretches of Route Yankee and MSR Tampa. (This intersection of both places was once called the most dangerous intersection in the world because of all of the IED emplacement.) In addition to this, a small contingent of my platoon was tasked with operating ECP 7 which was the entry point for military convoys onto Victory Base Complex. What was unusual about this day was the fact that I was on the FOB in a Company meeting and my platoon Sergeant was out on pa...