Kelly Smith Weblog Aficionado: Just a guy vs. Life

I have been sitting here this morning staring intently at my computer screen wondering where to begin as to describe my weekend. More than busy, I don't believe that we ever stopped rushing back and forth. On Friday night Renee and I stayed the night in Lexington and went to "Third Fridays" which is our own Kentucky Rural interpretation of First Fridays that so many young black professionals in larger cities enjoy. While the ambience was not that of an upscale nightclub in Manhattan, the people were a lot more refreshing to be around. I can honestly say that I did not spot one "Gold Tooth" in the joint. The function was hosted by the Heritage Council, and they plan to continue on as long as their is an interest. Hopefully the novelty of this event will not eventually wear off, because there are precious few "positive" places for young African-Americans to congregate in Lexington. I saw a lot of business cards as well as phone numbers being excha...

Today started out as terrible as terrible could be. I had so many things to do, bills to pay, work to do, things to worry about. I dreaded this day, because I knew it would be as long as all "get out". I worked through the first part of the day, and it seemed liek it would never end. I looked up from my computer and it was nearly time to eat. Well, I went home at lunch time, and I was in somewhat of a grumpy mood still. I came in made a sandwich, and watched one of those terrible episodes of Riki Lake....I knew my baby was out with her Auntie, and I really wished that I had someone to talk to. I finished gulping down my sandwich and walked into the kitchen...I looked at the clock and sighed as I dreaded finishing up the last half of the day. Then I spotted a card on top of the telephone. On the outside of the envelope it simply said, "Kel" The outside of the card said: I love it when i tell you how my day was and you listen and laugh at the funny ...

There is not always an explanation for everything.

Well, today is the day that I have to take care of the business of telling Sgt Meadows that I am not going to go back into the service. I hope that I did not waste too much of the man's time. But, the other offerings and opportunities that lay before me are much too promising. I can feel myself tingle with excitement just trying to imagine what the future may hold for me. I had a good morning thus far, and I sent Renee a note that I was particularly proud of....it came out of me with little or no effort, and here is what I had to say. Renee...I love you, I cherish you, I think about you all the time, and I will uplift you spiritually, mentally, and emotionally, as long as I live. Marriage will not be a new phase of my feelings for you, rather it will just be a new definition of the terms by which I have devoted my life to you and your beautiful sons. You are my sunrise, and you are the Alpha and Omega of every day of my life. Well, I am thinking about all of the option...

On a side note, thanks to all of the people that emailed me about my poetry submissions on lovingyou.com I will find out whether I am a winner or not in a day or so....wish me luck!

One would think that Springtime would be the time that love blossoms and romance is in the air. It makes perfect sense, the snow is melting, the forest wakes up, and love abounds. People think of Springtime and they think of the birds and the bees and lovers strolling through the park. I think that Springtime is lovely...aside from the nagging hayfever that plagues me. But Autumn is what makes me think of love. Autumn, not Fall, because Fall only describes what happens to the leaves. That is what we think about, the leaves turn brown and fall off the trees, and we assume that this is where our year is ending, or dying if you prefer. I disagree....this is merely the preparation for a long sleep before waking refreshed. Which is more comforting, to wake up on a bright morning full of vigor, or to lay one's tired body down, curl up in a blanket, and smile as you drift asleep....knowing that now is the time to rest that tired soul, and dream of all of the important things that ...

Well, Homecoming weekend is finally over, but it was such fun! Renee and I saw so many people that we went to school with. Everyone seems to be doing so well. Happily enough the weekend came and went without any major incidents.....All of our guests were well fed, and well taken care of, so that went well. I enjoyed spending much of my Homecoming weekend with my baby. All of the bruhs were like, "Where have you been Kel?" I tell you it is not the fact that I don't like hanging out with my friends and Frat Brothers, and it isn't as if I don't feel the same about them, but I just no longer have the urge to hang out with a "group". I really like doing things with Renee and her boys. I always experience a myriad of emotions when we spend time together. Things just seem so simple...I tell you, it is her...truly her that made me have a positive outlook on life once again. All day Sunday we were on the road...to Dayton and back, and to Louisville and ...

Well, today was not a typical morning, I arrived at work almost 30 minutes late because I tried to lay in bed until the last possible moment. Renee and I got a lot done last night in regard to preparing for our Homecoming Social for this weekend. I cleaned out that impossibly cluttered closet and cleaned the carpet, Renee did a yeoman's job of cleaning up the kitchen, and cleaning out the refirgerator and sorting through winter and summer clothes. Slowly but surely everything will be done, I still have a great deal to do in regards to the social...my OCS paperwork, work projects, and some other things. Oh well, we will see how things go. Wish me luck..or wish us luck rather!

Trying to test a few things to make sure that everything is working right in this weblog.

Well, this is the first day of my brand new weblog, and I am trying to see how everything will work. I am excited about the new "job" prospect that is before me, but i do have quite a bit of nervousness as to how it will affect Renee and the boys. I am thinking about the long run 100%. I suppose this is the most clear I have thought in a good long time.